Thanks Life

Over the last two days life has shown me that there are more important things than my ex-for-many-reasons.....I have to remind myself that. I don't want him I was just upset that he moved on so quickly and especially that he threw it in my face. I'm over it and I feel way better.
I guess in a way I missed the drama in my life..IDK why. I guess it made me feel like I HAD a life. I  honestly enjoy where my life is. I just want some romantic attention and the closest thing I had to that was an ex-for-many-reasons. I needed life to refocus my perspective and it did a great job. Hopefully it wont take such a traumatic event to do so.  I can't share publicly what it was but it better not ever happen again.

Thanks life

shit

i put so much of myself into him. he drained me of all my energy and all my love, wafer a while i had to close off and recuperate, talk to other people. now hes dating someone else and giving all his love to her but still treating me like shit. why do i accept his mess? why do i still want to accept it? why am i torturing myself with him? I had to delete him from my friends list cause i don't want to see his love rhymes that he used to say to me be regurgitated to her. i don't want to see him happy while im stuck with his shit he he keeps calling me to hang out but then when we do all he wants to do is talk about how hurt i am and how much he loves his new girl and call her in front of me and proclaim his love to her while im sitting there crying... who does that shit? he's so mean.

Hum Drum Love Bum

Life have been relatively good. I have nothing to complain about. Still enjoying my job. I love my job. It really brings light to my dark days.

A few days ago my Ex-For-Many-Reasons told me he was seeing someone new that is a "blessing" to his life and someone he may want to marry....I'd be lying if I said it didn't bother me...what bothered me about it was:
       1. I am currently still single with not even one prospect.
       2. I spent MAD years with this guy and now he's perfect for some other chick
       3. I'm mad that he found someone before I could.

Does this prove that i'm not quite ready for a relationship if I had these immature thoughts...?

Maybe....

I'm not particularly in a rush for a relationship but I miss having someone hold me and tell me im beautiful. I miss someone listening to my thoughts and beliefs. I miss daydreaming about a significant other. I miss simply making out and staring into their eyes. I miss making love...

I've vowed to myself to be celibate till I'm in a positively committed relationship with promises of marriage. I'm only 4 months in and it seems like a lifetime. My body misses the OMG of it all...you know...that moment when it feels like that magic stick was made to make fireworks go off everywhere in your body...when you have to ask yourself how you were able to live with out it....I love and miss hearing a man succumb to my womanly ways, him wading in my river and drinking from my stream....

Sometimes I plan and scheme in my head of how I can get me some from an old FWB but I stop myself. He can't fulfill any of my other needs except good....AMAZING dick (it really is amazing)...I want more though.


*sigh*..........Patients really is a hard thing to have acquired....



Hum Drum love Bum   :(